The scariest part of growing up is realizing you possess some of the same flaws that your parents have.
The scariest part of growing up is realizing you possess some of the same flaws that your parents have.
me when having a trauma episode: This is just what my life is now. I will never be okay. I will never be normal. I’m damaged and ruined too much for anything. I’ll never be healthy. What they did to me destroyed me. I will suffer for as long as I live.
me when I’m having a good day: I have done it, I have achieved a good life, everything is fun and life is endless possibilities maybe I will climb mountains today nothing is out of reach!! Also I will not be in a single bad mood ever again!
okay but consider this: i feel like my mind is rotting from the inside out
i swear someone could tell me they love me every single day for the rest of my life and I’d still be like nah you’re just playing
you have this idea in your head that the only time you’re worthy of being loved is when you’re at your best. you’re still worthy of being loved when you’re at your lowest. you’re still worthy of being loved when you don’t want to go on anymore. you are still worthy of being loved even when you don’t love yourself. you are a human and therefore always worthy of being loved and don’t you fool yourself into thinking otherwise.
things just get worse on an exponential scale and i don’t know how to stop it
you don’t. just let it consume you and hope it will be painless.